Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 7:38 AM * Another Tiring Days desu..
Feeling :Mixed.. ._.
Eating :I like.. nothing now.. ._.
Doing :
Imeem Studying!
Watching : You`re Beautiful
Listening to : Park Shin Hye and almost all You`re Beautiful OST
Its hard desu.. When there`s no one really understand u.. I realized it before and i thought its gonna be ok, for the whole time.. But its actually bitting me.. o.o Or even eating me, lil by lil.. Its my fault, i dont want to open up to everyone.. Yeah.. Im afraid.. Im afraid that anyone will see through me, and know what`s going on in my mind.. I dont want that.. Even my own mother does`nt really know what`s going on.. Thats bad right? I should tell her everything but i keep all those things in me, deep down inside.. When something happened, like anything that they thing im fine with it.. Im actually not fine with it.. But what to do.. I have to keep it, i dont want everyone to know i hate it.. When something happened, like bad things.. They thought that things really bother me, they afraid that i might be mad at them cause i told them that im not fine with it but i actually no.. I will not telling everyone that "Im not fine with it" cause as i told mention before i will not telling anyone when i feel bad.. So, it merely a joke.. But if im serious bout it, that mean i cant hold it anymore.. lol Weird ne.. But so far, no one can read that ne.. ^^ Not even my ex.. I hate when anyone keep on pushing me to do things.. I have my own pace! I know what im doing.. But, i wont tell them that way.. I will silently go or start to do it.. So yeah.. I might look cheerful but how cheerful i am deep inside? U will never know unless u can see through me but i wish that no one can see it.. Cause its a dark secret.. Biggy dark secret.. *smirks*
Feeling :Mixed.. ._.